Sunday, March 04, 2007

Recovery


Asking, listening, receiving and expressing. Those four steps are my method of learning and growing. Communicating with myself, with God, with you.

I remember holding thoughts and feelings inside, afraid to share them, thinking they were mine, thinking I could be crucified for making an error in consciousness if I let them out where you could see them. I was stuck in self protection.

I've discovered expressing these things allows me to see them more objectively and I experience myself expand, move, change. It makes more room inside. The kaleidoscope of my awareness expands.

An imaginary banner posted on the side of my imaginary bus reads,

"Whatever you think It's more than that, more than that"

--from Job's tears by Robin Williamson.

This is all prelude to revealing what I learned from my last post, the part about rude questions.


The "What kind of person..." was all wrong.


We're all the same kind of person.


We're all
Humans.
Humiliating
Humble
Humming

I want connections, inside and outside. We're all in this together whether we know it or not.

I want to ask "What's going on when a person makes their desire for a baby more important than the baby's desire for it's mother?" What are we doing?
Lets go for a drive.

8 comments:

suz said...

odd (or not). something about you writing style consistently reminds me of your daughters writing.
I wonder if my daughter would say the same?

Being Me said...

We do have a lot in common. How about that?

Do you see similarities with your daughter in emails? I remember you've seen similarities in your personalities.

Joy said...

That is a very shiny bus.

kim.kim said...

I like the bus. You been doing yoga J??

I have a feeling that you are experiencing healing and growth is that true?

Being Me said...

Joy--There is not much dust or grime in my imagination. Things can really sparkle, once they get out of the shadows.

Kim --I go to my weekly belly dance class and sometimes practice at home. And I work in the garden.

Yes I am healing. Blogging has been an instrumental addition to my regular spiritual practices and studies. Having a safe place to explore the parts of myself I'd tried to eliminate has really taught me how silly it is to try to make me different than I am.

Being Me said...

Joy--There is not much dust or grime in my imagination. Things can really sparkle, once they get out of the shadows.

Kim --I go to my weekly belly dance class and sometimes practice at home. And I work in the garden.

Yes I am healing. Blogging has been an instrumental addition to my regular spiritual practices and studies. Having a safe place to explore the parts of myself I'd tried to eliminate has really taught me how silly it is to try to make me different than I am.

kim.kikm said...

I want need and must start belly dancing classes, my life will not be complete until I begin.

I definetly feel the shine J. you are really on a roll.

But now I am going to go offline and click my yoga dvd that is downloaded onto my lap top and do some yoga.

NAMASTE.

Ungrateful Little Bastard said...

Yoga and belly dancing are two things I miss terribly and need to make the time for. But the blogging is wonderful and I LOVE so much you classified it as a spiritual practice. Even in my silliest of posts, I think of it as self-healing.